time rages forth

Yesterday we went to see my son and granddaughter. Everything was going fine.

My son then started the fire about me going back to church. He scoffed at me. Attacking me with his vengeanceful venom. Margaret soon followed.

During the attacks I kept still. I made a promise to Margaret that I won't preach to her. Despite the fact she was preaching against me.

On the way home I was silent. I didn't know what to say or do. After we got home for a bit I opened up. I spoke of how I was "cast out" yet did nothing to stop it. I told Margaret that if she doesn't preach against me, that I will not preach to her.

She calls herself the "devil woman." I am hurt by her words and the venom of my son.

I haven't anyone to talk to about these matters. I am alone with my internal conflict. I was extremely upset over this ordeal.

A few hours later the doorbell rang. It was the Elders. Margaret says its your friends. They came at a good time. I needed to hear the Gospel.

After they left Margaret asked if they were gonna keep coming around. I replied yes. She also asked if they were gonna keep coming alot. I replied I hope so.

I love Margaret. She's the first person I ever loved.

She's worried that the church will come between us. I hope it doesn't but I cannot accept her attacks.

I told Margaret that by my going to church it will strengthen our marriage.

I stand alone. I weep for that. I am wounded and afraid.

I know the Gospel will bring me joy. I will continue with my readings, prayers and studies.

I will endure to the end.

David