Coming around

I haven't written here in quite a long time. I started this blog to talk about my experience with the Church.

Yesterday at church, I was interviewed for the Priesthood. The interview went well. I did however, lie. I wanted so badly to hold this office that I was willing to lie in order to receive it. Lie I did. I will suffer the consequences. I will admit my wrong. I want to be honest. Honesty breeds honesty.

I know a few people that have a mental diagnosis that joined the church that fell away like me. I want this to work so I can help those who fell away. Its hard on us.

My reasons for leaving are vast. My reasons for returning are I wanted friends. I think that was a selfish reason. I didn't make any friends for some time, but I kept going back. I wasn't going to let that stop me. On the way I met some people. More importantly I began to know my Heavenly Father and His son Jesus Christ.

I have no one to share the joy I feel in church. Margaret doesn't like the idea of me going to church.

I feel like I belong there. I am reaching out of my comfort zone to meet new people. I made a goal to approach one new member each week. I have met that goal each week.

I have been cleaning out my mind by putting good things in. "What you put into your mind comes out in a life." That is my motto. I changed the music I listen to. I read the Scriptures and pray everyday.

If a negative thought or voice enters my mind I shut it immediately. It's amazing that I know as soon as one starts I know what it will say and "push it out" and replace it with a positive thought.

I will try to keep this blog up to date. I want this to be a place where I can be free to write openly and honestly.

David