Addictions holding me back

I have an addiction to pornography. It is a dark, evil addiction. It is holding me back. I do not want this in my life. I have "indulged" for so many years that its hard to "unplug" myself from its grip. I am ashamed, guilty, selfish and dirty. I am being hard on because that's how I must do it. I cannot overcome this lightly. I must use every ounce of energy that I can. I cancelled my yahoo account. I will start a new account so I can chat with my father.. only! I have been chatting with a woman for a few months maybe over a year. I am not accusing her of anything. I allowed myself to hang on because of my huge pride and even larger ego. I cannot tell her that I have gotten fond of her and maybe even love her. When I chat with her I lose my ability to restrain myself from sex talk. Those talks are triggers for me. I used her for my own ill gotten gain. The internet is also a trigger. I will only blog here, szconnect, pressconnects and RMH. In the morning I will read scriptures and listen to music. I will blog in the afternoon. I am going to stop watching tv all together. The shows that I watch have sexual tones and cursing. I will also write more in my books. I am cutting out the bad and working towards the good. I know that it will be hard. BUT By limiting the amount of time I spend online I will overcome. Its so easy to access porn online. I must cut out most of my online time. I know I will may get bored. I will find things to do. I like to write. Write I will. Its keeps my mind active and clear. If I am busy I won't have time to surf the porn sites. I always liked this quote... "what you put into your mind, good or bad, comes out in a life.

I know that Heavenly Father loves me. I know that Jesus Christ's Atonement is for my sins. If Jesus loved me so much to give up His life for me than I can give up the addiction for Him. This is pray in the name Jesus Christ, amen